God Winks....

We recently went through a parenting crisis, first with an illness and then with the side effects of said illness that there isn’t enough research on so here we all are just trying to figure it out. As parents we knew something was wrong and we advocated for our child. We knew it was directly correlated to the illness because of the timeframe and because this Is the first time we have ever seen this. We were dismissed over and over because our child is a young adult and it was implied that we were overreacting! This was so new to us and we didn’t know what resources to use, it was like a needle in a haystack in 2 states no less but we didn’t let up and finally found medical professionals that HEARD our concerns and took action.

It wasn’t easy, we haven’t had to make decisions together in years and have barely had a conversation since the kids have been grown enough to communicate on their own. Once they could ask for their needs on their own and once they turned 18 and the financial aspect ended, there was no reason for us to stay in communication like that unless it was an emergency. To go from that to communicate several times a day took a whole lot of whoo-sah at first. The beautiful thing about growth is that communication improves and you decide to not scream and pull your hair out and simply express how you feel and what you need. Who knew life could be so simple?

This is where the God wink comes in….

I left Lexington in 2010 and it’s about to be 2022 in a few days. I was there from 1993 and it truly was home. Baby boy was with his Dad and we are still navigating new territory and learning along the way. He shoots me a text and asks me if I remember a lady named LF and immediately I remember the name but cannot place the face or anything else. I am searching my memory bank and nothing is coming up. I even Google her and still nothing! She’s a big deal in her field and I’m so impressed but feel awful that I don’t remember her. I snap out of it because it is what it is and the brain forgets to protect. He tells me they just randomly ran into her and she remembers me from the early 2000’s and she’s an exact resource we need! Come on God wink! She goes out of her way to make plans to bring some resources to my son later on.

When she does he FaceTimes me and we talk she tells how I told her about the Carnegie Center back then and how she used to love my writing and she asks if I’m still writing and if I’m still leading some book clubs. I realize that this God wink was 2 fold, I’m going through a transitional period right now and LF was sent to us to help with our parental crisis and to me to remind me of who I was and get back to her. She got lost in shuffle and she needs to come on back. She is me.

I need to write more for me so here I am.

Thank you LF and think you God.